I'm not calling you a liar, just don't lie to me

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My world has been all shaken up, but I know everything will be ok when I've lost a bit of weight and gone away for (another) fortnight. Is it wrong that one of my favourite things about holidays is getting away from everything? And then I miss it all, I really do.
I'll stop writing moany blogs soon :)

sweeter than heaven and hotter than hell

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I am quite literally speechless.

when the sky is full of zeros and ones

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things i'll miss about spain:

1. The sun

2. Sexy, half-naked boys, in particular the Hot Scots and Converse Shirt

3. Yummy buffet desserts, I'm fat as a pig

4. The shopping

5. Frances, Jesus, Julian and Chris

6. Having someone clean my room and make my bed for me every day

7. Tax-free alcohol

8. The graffiti, I mean "street art"

9. Salty curls

10. But, most of all, MICHAL, the love of my life

things i won't miss about spain:

1. Having to pay for internet

2. Being around my fam constantly

3. Coca Light - it is NOT the same as Diet Coke

4. Pervy men

5. Having to live out of a suitcase, my clothes were all scrunched up!

6. Sunburn! :( ow

7. Fatt food - again, fat as a pig

8. Fat topless women on the beach

I would go out tonight but I haven't got a stitch to wear

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I want this shirt! -->

I'm grounded and it's a load of bullshit. It wasn't even my fault really, the reason for my grounding, I mean. I was back late from the park. An hour and a quarter late to be exact. Which has earnt me at least a week of grounding, now how is that fair? I missed going out yesterday on the last day of school, missed going to town today and missed Fran's party tonight. Like I said, bullshit.

It wasn't even worth it! At least if I'd been in good company at the park I would've felt like this grounding has been for a good cause. But it's just more infuriating because I'm missing all this good stuff for no real reason. It was just pointless. Fucking stupid arghhhhhhhhhh! Gotta get my priorities right.

I probably brought it on myself with the whole not speaking thing. But I've been having one of my bad weeks. Sometimes everything just goes turns to shit for me, or it feels like it does, and I don't know why. But other times, when everything is actually shit, I feel fantastic. It's weird. I can't explain it. Whateverrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!

Anyway, I got a new camera today which is good. And I'm going to Spain in 2 days, which is not going to be fun with relations as they are between me and my mum. So far, I've packed 3 bikinis and a Spanish phrasebook - what else do I really need?

Now it's summer, go out and play! -a.

Honey I was lonely on the road, I was all on my own

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nec what? nectars!

Joe Jefferey is a gimp <3

Now go out and play! -a.

I lied about being the outdoor type

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That's right everyone, I'm a poser :) Read Guitar Girl by Sarra Manning.

I'm doing my History coursework and I'm bored! Thanks to Lily for sending me hers :) I now fully understand Mao's communist principles. And stuff like that.

I am obssessivelt checking my phone at the moment and it's driving me frickin' crazy, especially as he is the slowest texter-back ever. Maybe I am just too keen. Whatever, this is not even funny anymore.

Now go out and play! -a.

if i was a flower growing wild and free

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This is what I call old-school graffiti :)

it doesn't pay to be smarter than teachers

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well, today started badly because it was a bad hair day. and not even one of those bad hair days that nobody notices, soooo many people asked me if i’d had a hair cut. more people noticed today than when i actually DID have my hair cut. i could probably draw some kind of conclusion from this but i can’t be bothered. i have shit hair.

we were supposed to be doing drama all day but obviously i never seem to do what i’m told anymore so we just mucked about and i played human bowling with a huge thingy on wheels and a load of chairs which was fuunnnnnn :)

we panicked when we did our technical rehersal and couldn’t work the sound but greg is a god and made us a cd :) i converted to greg-ism. he is my new god. maan, i miss baby paul though.

then we went down to morrison’s for food, i had the diet energy drink which was only 6 calories but still satisfied my caffiene craving. i’m starting to think i’m actually addicted which is so not good, but chloe says all that really happens if you’re addicted to caffiene is that your teeth go yellow. so if i have whitening toothpaste, being addicted might not actually be to bad. better than being addicted to alcohol or heroin or tobacco or sex. well maybe not sex. like russell brand was. anyway, this is not what i’m meant to be talking about.

we got back to school late, and i missed like all of the performances because i was too busy crying at amy to “fix my fucking face pleeeease!” and “my hair looks shit omg amy HELP ME!” and THEN i lost my costume and was all set to crawl through i window to get it until the nice man came and unlocked the door for me.

i remembered all my lines everything was really good :)

but then HORROR! i lost my phone and had to tip ALL the contents of my THREE bags on the floor, but it wasn’t in there so i left all my stuff scattered on the pavements outside school while i ran back inside BUT!!! school was all locked so i had to wait for someone to come let me in and then i had to runrunrun to find my phone before mr rickell locked me in the drama block! but don’t worry everyone, i found my phone and got out alive so everything is peachy :)

then i walked home alone and crashed on the sofa as soon as i came in, i only just woke up and i am aching from D of E sooooo much and my head aches soooo badly and i’ve lost my voice so i can’t talk but i’m still kinda happy :)

hopefully no school tomorrow <3

Now go out and play! -a.

It's our godforsaken right to be loved

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Everyone stay calm; I'm back from Duke of Edinburgh and I lived, you you can stop panicking now. I will always be here to blog for you.

Actually I'm going to bed now, but in theory I will always be here to give you something good to read :)

I'm considering telling you about all the scandal in my life, no holds barred, giving real names and everything... although I think that could be a serious breech of privacy for some...

Now go out and play! -a.

Just look at yourself and then make a change

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This isn't even that good but yay I heart my textiles class :)

Everybody makes mistakes, but I seem to be making more than most of late. And I'm really, really sorry.

Now go outside and play! -a.

I like you so much better when you're naked

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Marry me

Just went to see Year One. It had no storyline - it was like the director started filming an idea, got bored and started something else without finishing the last idea. Most of his ideas involved gay innendoes, farting, fighting or killing. But whatever - I love Michael Cera.

Now go outside and play! -a.

in the morning, you know we won't remember a thing

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I like to write stories about parties. I normally spend the day after a party recovering and writing out what happened so that I don't forget. I know, what a crazy hobby I have!

This one's about Alex's! It was actually nine pages long... but I'm only giving you the first bit :)

APPLE SOURZ AFTER HOURS

I know I’m at Nat’s house before I open my eyes. The musty, friendly scent of her house filters through my nostrils and I smile. I blearily open my eyes to see Natalya sitting on the sofa opposite me with an outrageously huge mug of tea. It’s good to see something familiar, and I pull the blue blanket round me tighter and snuggle down on the sofa a little more.
The blue blanket…
Something digs into my wrist and I moan and pull my arm out from under me to find the source of the pain. It’s a bracelet with circular beads.
That’s not mine…
My mouth feels like it’s coated with sandpaper. I run my tongue over my cheeks and teeth. Euw, there’s something stuck in my mouth… chewing gum.
When did I eat a chewing gum…?
I peer at Natalya. The remains of make-up on her face. The burn under her eye. My bag lying open on the floor, it’s contents spewed across the carpet. The almost empty bottle of Apple Sourz lying on its side at the end of the sofa.
And then I remember. It’s the remembering that’s the worst bit.“Oh, fuck,” I say.

I hope you all had a good time. I know I did :)

What good would Heaven be? If the angels come for me I’d tell them no.

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R.I.P.

Twenty years from now, people will ask you; where were you when Michael Jackson died?

Today was a classic example of why NSG shouldn't try to be different.

Now go outside and play! -a.

i've got soul, but i'm not a soldier

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Proof that I am actually a good person, and that Natalya is, in fact, alive. For those of you who haven't seen her at school in a while ;)

Tomorrow is going to be a complete laugh! Applied learning? What a load of rubbish :)

Guess what! I bought one of those tins a little while back, you know the ones, like a money box but you can't open them except with a can-opener? I had a purple one with Marilyn Monroe on the front, and I cracked it open yesterday because I wanted to buy the book of Nick and Norah's Infinite Playlist. (WATCH THAT FILM - I loved it. Micheal Cera is hot, I love him.) Anyway, I had loaaaaads of money in there! I think it might me time for a charity shop trawl-through. You never know what you might find in there. I'm looking for a cardigan like this one that Erika A. has, because it's beautz:

Wardrobe and Scrooge, here I come!

Now go out and play! -a.

I'm her yesterday man

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The 'media team' went to Northampton University today to learn how to be journalists.

We got distracted though; they had Apple Macs with built-in webcams and all thoughts of being mature disappeared :)

Now go out and play! -a.

Cradle me, I'll cradle you

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Simon's party!

What a start to the summer :) Hopefully there's plenty more where that came from.

Duke of Edinburgh practice

We had no idea just how hard it was going to be. Fun times though :)

I just want to get all my coursework handed in and exams done so I can enjoy summer properly :) if this is what it's like this year, I'm REALLY dreading year 11...

Now go outside and play! -a.

It could be as simple as trust me, trust me

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I am in textiles talking about the party on Friday! We made a song about Alanna, it has sub-parts and everything... ALANNA WAS DRUNK ON FRIDAY NIGHT... hahaaaaa :)

more later!

Now go outside and play! -a.

we're definately going to hell, but we'll have all the best stories to tell

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And Mr Wells says I don't concentrate in physics. I think this picture begs to differ - I concentrated very hard in the lessons it took me to draw this.

Got very excited when I got my second follower - before I realised that they're a company who don't know me, aren't interested in me, and will never, ever read this blog.

Hmm... I'm tired.

Now go outside and play! -a.

Once we were young and we were crass enough to care

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Me and Natalya

I only have one follower at the moment. I keep posting though, because I know there are some of you who read my blog who aren't on blogspot.com and socan't subscribe. Even if you didn't read it, I think I'd still write it. For myself more than anything :)

I'm not going to Greece, it's final. But I am going to Spain now, which makes up for it! It means I can't go to warwick Folk Festival with Nat though, which is so bad I can't even begin to tell you. I was looking forward to it so much this year as well :'(

I wish I had something interesting to tell you, but I don't. Other than the fact that Natalya seems to have disappeared off the face off the Earth. Thank God it's nearly summer, I don't think I've ever worked quite this hard in my life before :/

Now go outside and play! -a.

PS. Or not outside, as the case may be. All it seems to do here is rain - I think we had about three days of sun, followed by about three weeks of thunder. Or that's what it seems like to me.

I smile sweetly in the daytime

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The Joseph coats were judged the other day. We didn't win, but I still think ours looked the best when it was on with all the inserts pulled out and everything. We had fun making it and that was the main thing...

Dad and Tracy broke up, not that I care much, I'm just pissed off that I don't get to go to Greece anymore. I never really liked Tracy much. So whatever. It's a bit annoying that adults never stay together though... sometimes I feel like we're the more mature ones, really. Anyway...

I'm not writing too often at the moment, I don't have time. I'm working hard at keeping my grades up and doing my coursework well and stuff. I want to get good grades in my GCSEs, which obviously makes me some kind of freak among my peers. They're all too cool to care, and me, well... I'm quote "keen" unquote.

This hasn't been a very upbeat blog :/ I know... I'll tell a joke!

Q - Why did the chicken cross the park?

A - To get to the other slide!

Haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! :D

-Now go outside and play! -a.

She's losing it

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Girls in the media

I hope that I am still alive next year

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This week has been an eventful one, to say the least.

It included a ICT GCSE (sample question: 'Two people are listed as having the same birth date. Explain why this may not be a mistake,' I'm serious... and this was the higher paper), going to see Maximo Park on Tuesday (still greatest band EVER. See photo to the right, j'adore!), the making of Joseph's coat all Wednesday which meant I was off timetable, c'etait fantastique, and I was off timetable yesterday too because I had my drama all-day GCSE. Crazy.

And today I like collapsed.. well, not exactly, I just threw up and then kind of stumbled into the nurses office all shaking and weak and sweaty and slept for ages. When I woke up, she told me I'd like, collapsed from exhaustion and that I need to sleep and eat more. The only meal I eat is dinner (what can I say, I like feeling hungry) and I think I'm like, a kind of insomniac, because I just can't sleep. I told Charis all my problems in History, and she reckons I need to talk to a physcologist. Ha I bet you think I'm really fucked up now! I'm not, just a bit odd sometimes haha :) So yeah, that was fun.

Now I'm listening to Busted's old album. I loved them in year 6 and I still love them now, but I don't tell anyone that except Alanna, Harriet and Anisha because it's embarrassing... Busted are not cool :D

Now go out and play! -a.

PS! I've got my first follower! :D :D :D :D

I'll be begging you for more

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It was Anisha's birthday on Friday. We had the best time, dancing to Busted. Maan, I love Busted. I made her a cake! See first picture, above. That's Anisha in peanut M&Ms, incase you weren't smart enough to figure that out. She's got blue hair because there aren't black M&Ms. The middle is a photo of her with her cake, she liked it almost as much as I did :) The last picture is one of all of us, because Anisha insisted on having one of all of us! In order from left to right, there's me, Alanna, Harriet, then Anisha. I love my friends :) and Anisha's laugh is crazy... though I think the main thing we learnt from Friday night is that I can't rap, and Paris Hilton can't act. Insightful much?

Now go out and play! -a.

PS. I got an A in my maths mock! Quelle surprise!

Baby, you can drive my car

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I need some new jeans.

I want to paint my room. White.

My maths mock went really badly today, I think I might have just about scraped a B, if I'm lucky that is :/

Now go out and play! -a.

Here's to broken trigger fingers

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My grandad gave me his old denim jacket today, so instead of revising for my upcoming RE GCSE, I spent my day taking it in and sewing buttons, patches and various other adornments to it.

Don't worry though, I'll pass my RE exam easily: Annika, everything changes. Anatta, no permenant self. Dukkha, suffering exists. I got Buddhism sorted. I'm actually thinking of becoming a Buddhist... I mean, karma and stuff... it makes sense. Plus, Buddhists don't believe in a God! On the downside though, they are all vegetarians which would seriously affect me if I ever wanted to go on the Atkins diet. Which I'm also thinking of doing.

When we went on the French exchange, Alanna played Taylor Swift's Love Song over and over, and everytime she put it on her iPhone I'd moan at her to turn it off... but now, I love it! It does give me pain to admit that, but I really love her. You will never know what a feeling of joy I got when it came on shuffle on my iPod today... it was beautiful :)

Now go out and play! -a.

Hey Lloyd, I'm ready to be heartbroken

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Today's outfit! > > > > > > > >

I went bra shopping today, because all my bras are ugly. I wanted a pretty one! So, I was in La Senza trying on pretty bras, and all the C's that I normally wear were feeling a bit tight... so I tried some D's, and they seemed to fit ok... but I was totally in denial ('My boobs can't be bigger than a C! They just can't!') so I had to get a woman to come in and measure me - the horror! She told me that I was definately a D. I started crying when she left. I can't believe it - at this rate my boobs will be round my knees by the time I'm 30, and the only bras that will fit me will be horrible, all-encompasing granny bras and never feel attractive again. Very bad times :'(

Now go out and play! -a.

He's a scumbag, dontcha know?

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I love watching Rosie draw. She concentrates so hard! Watching people do something they're good at is always interesting :)

I went to Fran's tonight, Bill said did I want to go and I had nothing better to do, so... big mistake for me. To those of you who don't know me, I'm a little bit socially retarded, so obviously I just sat there and said nothing while they boys talked about boy things and made little trolls have fights with each other. I will never understand boys. Me and Max walked home in the end.

Oh and I'm out of shape, I'm like a big walking muffin. Note to self: get back into shape before summer... and bikini season!

Now go out and play! -a.

I've just seen a face

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I had a dream last night that I was charged down by a bull and died... then I woke up extra-specially early to get to the CoCo Pops before my brothers ate them all. Went to the second Duke of Edinburgh Award meeting - the general agreement is that we're not going to live to see the end of the trip. Dr Webster is going to kill us long before then.

Remember Roland's party? Oh dear :)

Now go out and play! -a.